I was looking today and noticed that i haven’t blogged since the end of the summer.
I figured tonight that i would have have time update you on my life.
I am currently in my senior year of high school, counting down the days until June 8th, 2011 to graduate.
I will officially be attending Oregon State University next year and will be majoring in Pre-Pharmacy as a spanish minor.
This year has been the most challenging and stressful year of my life.
The advanced/college classes i have selected to take this year have proven to be overwhelming and find myself doing homework into the late nights all the time.
I was forced to quit swim team because of this issue.
Well, that’s not the only problem that forced me to quit.
I have for several months been struggling with an eating disorder, but i guess i did not realize how bad it had gotten until swim season.
I really wish i knew how or why i struggle with food. I hate food. I hate thinking about food. I hate seeing food. I hate the idea that if i eat it, i will instanly become fat.
The thought of food has taken over my mind. Food leaves me more stressed and with an anxiety disorder.
I never thought that such a problem would happen to me. I just need to realize the support i have to help me get through this.
I have currently been struggling with the idea that i am gay. I want to come out to friends and family.
I was in a relationship with the greatest guy Brandon for 4 months. We broke up because he wanted me to focus on getting better. He will always hold a special place in my heart.
I have come to realize that everything in my life happens for a reason. This year has been a struggle for me and everyone else in my life. I know that it can only go uphill from here.
P.S. I will keep you updated on my condition more often now. School has finally began to slow down has i near the end.